I’m back and I’m in dark side.
Two days ago I was so wasted that I said something to my boyfriend that I can’t even remember.
He wouldn’t talk to me. I told him that I’m sorry hundreds time and explained my feelings towards him. I said that I loved him for the first time and I don’t feel ashamed of it. He needs to know how I feel now!
I can’t really say what I told him when I was drunk, because it is too embarrassing.
Now I am shaking, I think that is because I can’t cry, but I really feel like crying.
Shit! I really need him in my life and I can’t even think what it would be like if he stays mad.
Now I swear – I won’t drink and I won’t flirt with other boys. The thing that I thought was nothing became huge. These mistakes can’t be made again. I should be new me. I should do something to let him know that I only want him and IT was the biggest mistake I have ever made.
So, if you have any ideas how to make him believe me, please please please let me now. I really need more advise right now.
I think I will be back shortly.